Thinking Back

So summer has approached and soon before I know it my little peanut will be 1. Its scary how time flies. I just turned 30 and I really do not know how to feel about it. I want my littles ones to freeze in time, for them to always be little & for me to always be able to hold them and kiss their little heads while they fall asleep on my chest. That could ultimately be the best feeling in the world that I could experience as a mom.  Forget all those late night feedings and the times that you got up to put the paci back in, its all those little moments that matter.... The fact that I wont let me child cry it out because I feel that loving her and Lily when she was little was going to be opportunities that only lasted for those short few months.  They both sleep like champs so I know I didnt ruin them. Lily will start pre-k next year and then on to big girl school as we call it, makes me cry to think about all these moments that I am having are going to be the sweet cherished memories that are caught in time in photos & videos and in my memory for the rest of my life. 

As I have grown up over the years I have truly found out what true friendship is.. Its not doing something because you feel like you have to return a favor, its doing something for someone out of the goodness of your heart.  I have learned that you give on to others as you want to be treated too.  I am not the type of person that puts up with stuff esp from someone who I see maybe once or twice a year... I beleive that friends and people that know you are always constantly checking on you and making sure that things are going well for you.  My family is most important to me, not making sure that I try to please someone that I may only see once or twice a year and you dont even know my daunghters name (sorry rant). Someone posted something on FB that I thought was perfect. "Now why are we friends on here if we are not friends in real life?" I thought that was just perfect, I do like to look though :) ..... Okay back to thinking..... I want to make sure that my little girls have everything that I was provided while I was growing up from my mom and dad. My mother is my Rock. I could not imagine my world without her. She is the reason that I am where I am. Always pushing me and supporting me in everything that I do. I now know how much she loves me as I see it in her eyes when I talk about the love with my girls. It only grows stronger as you get older.

Anyway, enough of the on going stuff that makes me sad about and happy about at the same time for new memories only to be made.